dude...the dance was awesome....everyone was staring at me...no one thought i'd wear my renaissance dress....they all doubt me....tisk tisk tisk.....i had like.....4 or 5 stalkers or more there....lol....everyone commented on my dress....dude...it was so awesome....neither kieran or kevin are my lovers any more....i have a new lover...MILLER!! you are so awesome! we will be awesome together...lol

you know...everyone insists i have a chance with **him**...but...everyone that insists is just my friends and they're just saying that...and i told them that and they say "no honestly you do have a chance" but i dont...i really dont...and i told them...they're gonna get my optimism up so high...and then i tell him that i like him and/or ask him out...and.....then all my optimism's gonna get shattered...i just know it....and those of you who think otherwise...i'll prove it to you...once i work up enough courage...IF i work up enough courage...

plus....there are gonna be soooo many rumors going around the school on monday.....i can guarentee it....also ruining my chances with **him**

yea....thats about it...